Incomprehensible Calculations

That glow I see at the horizon’s edge -

twin sunset and sunrise,

for when all things end,

so then will all things Be again,

and will Be more than they’ve ever been,

the unfathomable distance we’ve come

making the going and the coming,

the leaving and the arriving

all the richer,

the unmaking and the Remaking

all the realer.

And we will say,

“I am here.

Not my shade,

not my dead self - me.

Only possible because of Him.

He saw my wholeness die

and knew His would, too.

He traded His wholeness

for the one I gave away,

and somehow

One and negative one became two.

Of all the incomprehensible calculations in the world,

this one astounds me most.

Background:

As we live in this state between living death and Life, as we learn what it really means to be alive and what it means to be whole, He continues to do the conversions needed within us even while we don’t understand the details of the spiritual math He does.

Like untrained viewers asking a painter about the types of paint strokes used and why, or a mechanic what tools and parts are needed and why, we stand in His presence, we see and feel Him doing the work, making the changes, but we can’t replicate them from our own understanding.

Praise God that He sent a professional Remaker to transform us into wholeness again.

Wishing you goodness without end,

Jess